leaveatrailoffire: (WHY ARE ALL MY CHARACTERS DUMB?)
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Happy New Year! I am welcoming the new year by writing an essay about character relationships. Because... augh. This particular relationships is so frustrating.

Basically, Matt and Scout are... complicated as fuck. They sort of defy any terms that I can put on them, simply because they bounce back and forth between these two places: platonic siblingthings and fuckbuddies. In theory (in my head at least) there should be a clear and distinct line between those two, but there isn't because NOTHING IS SIMPLE IN THIS 'VERSE. NOTHING.

The problem really (as much as I don't want to admit it) is Scout, because Scout was systematically broken when she got her wings and now her brain functions at about the level of a three to five year old (five may be stretching it--she's totally incoherent when she speaks, etc.) So the sexual part of the relationship is very very weird and almost squicky--in theory, Matt's having sex with a three year old. Scout also can't really give consent because she doesn't know what consent IS. This makes Matt look like a predatory bastard when really, he isn't. He's fucked up, absolutely--the boy is LITERALLY addicted to pain, for starters-- but he's not a rapist, he's not a pedophile. Part of it comes from his last relationship with a Rak (which was the relationship where he fell desperetly in love with the girl and then she ran off to liberate camps and got killed), part of it comes from... okay, I'm not going to lie. A lot of it comes from him ignoring other people's needs and being kind of self-centered because he has issues that he's not willing to face. Is essentially what part of it boils down to. It's just... if I haven't learned in real life that humans are complicated, fuck if I'm not learning it now. This is just important to me because I don't want Matt to come off as a total creepy asshole--he is creepy, but part of that has to do with the fact that he's flawed. Just... augh, frustrating.

I'm going to go back to working on my essay now. It can be found here when I finish it.